I went back and forth with this.
The more I thought of it, the less I wanted to do it. But I feel it is becoming easier to listen to myself. When I have trouble asking someone for something it is usually because I wouldn't ask myself and when that is the case, it is usually because I don't agree with myself. When I feel I should or that it is better to do something, I have no problem asking people for it. So it is not out of shyness that I stop myself, it is out of common sense.
It is not all that easy to understand. If I have an idea, it is because I want to do it. Why have a wish you don't wish to carry out? What happened in this case was that I agreed with the idea but not with the timings, the means or the limitations for that matter.
The idea stands. I will set out in this continent and the others, sooner rather than later, connect coasts, meet people. It will take me as much time as it takes me.
This, as it turns out, was not my last march in search of a sight of blue on blue. It will be but the glimpse of the first.